01 June 2013

Morning Comes


This morning, I feel like we've gone back in time. It's Wednesday, January 25 again and Miss Heather is going in for a relatively benign visit with the V-E-T, however unbeknownst to her. She frolics around the condo after our morning walk, looking confused as to why we aren't sticking to the usual schedule in which she gets to devour her morning meal the minute we come back through the front door. She is happy, and rather playful. Yes, this is exactly like the morning just a few months ago when a routine dental turned into battle with the big "C."

On the other hand, I refuse to let it be Wednesday, January 25 again. That morning, I was completely blindsided with such news and was hit pretty hard by the revelation that Heather had what I now know was liposarcoma, a malignant form of localized cancer. I don't want any such news this morning and I'm fighting hard against the "what ifs" in order to maintain a "she's going to be fine" mentality. Previous experience at the V-E-T makes a positive mentality harder to achieve but, the most influencial point for me is the fact that my Scottie babies have fought their way out of every scary health situation so far. I need to believe that no matter the findings and diagnosis, my Heather has what it takes to fight and live her best life yet again.

I'm not as scared as I first was of Cushing's, thanks to the support from our fellow Scottie Moms and Dads. The most difficult part for me is knowing the test may not show Cushing's and what it might be instead. Simply put, I've heard from many a Scottie Mom and Dad that our beloved Scotties are gone too soon and I'm not ready to say goodbye to either of mine just yet. Not that I'm expecting such a dramatic diagnosis but, as any Scottie Mom or Dad knows, the "unknown" can really get to you and these are the kinds of thoughts that can consume you...if you let them. And, since my goal is to whole-heartedly believe everything will be fine and we're going to get through this, I won't let it. This morning, I fast alongside Heather as a token of my belief in her. Mr. K is, too. We're a family and we're in this fight together. Keep us in your thoughts, fellow Scottie Moms and Dads. We'll be back with an update as soon as we know more.

14 comments:

  1. wallaceandsamuelJune 1, 2013 at 8:10 AM

    Chin up Scottie mom...we are keeping our paws crossed.
    Wally & Sammy

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  2. Tessie and Bonnie The ScottiesJune 1, 2013 at 8:43 AM

    Hi Heather and Mr. K~ Don't be scared..The Vet is good...he will help you...and maybe Mom will get you a treat after..Tee hee

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  3. Judy OviattJune 1, 2013 at 9:26 AM

    Best wishes for a negative result- hoping she just has wierd liver values because she is special!

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  4. noodledogJune 1, 2013 at 9:45 AM

    I think a lot of Scots have weird liver values, just look at how many of us have been told that very same thing, and we continue to be our happy, crazy selves. Whatever it is, remember you have a support system , and Heather is still with you.
    Noodledog

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  5. hutchagoodlifeJune 1, 2013 at 10:18 AM

    Whee are thinking of you and know you will be able to deal with anything life throws at you.

    Nibbles, Nutty, Buddy & Basil
    xxxx

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  6. KylaJune 1, 2013 at 10:47 AM

    C sucks. Our bladders are especially a target. Watch what you spray in the yard-it's better to have a Scottie and pests than neither.

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  7. easyweimaranerJune 1, 2013 at 11:14 AM

    You are in my thoughts and I will cross my paws and I send you all my hope.

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  8. Mindy VoelkerJune 1, 2013 at 1:55 PM

    Paws, toes, fingers....all crossed for a pawsitive report. And we are all saying prayers to the Guy who spells His name doG backwards! You know, there must be a reason He does that and we all think - in this house anyway - it's because He loves them!

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  9. Diane KennedyJune 1, 2013 at 3:33 PM

    We are thinking of you. Our Scottie, Ewok, had horrid liver values, he lived 5 years past the diagnosis, he was 10 in human years and died of kidney failure. His brother (Frodo) and litter mate is 11 and still chasing lizards. Keep the faith!! Know we are all supporting you.

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  10. KayaJune 1, 2013 at 5:49 PM

    We are keeping our fingers and paws crossed for Miss Heather.

    ~ Kaya, Pip and Zoey.

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  11. ZenaJune 1, 2013 at 8:21 PM

    Thinking of you all and hoping the news is better than you fear.

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  12. Barbara BrandtJune 2, 2013 at 12:52 AM

    With Cushing's, we and our vet worked to keep Robbie going for almost as long as he might otherwise lived. While this was nowhere near as long as we would have liked (FOREVER!), we had him longer than the Cushing's diagnosis seemed to indicate. We also did a different treatment than was considered the norm, but it worked for him for quite a few years. I am hoping it isn't Cushing's and I am hoping it isn't anything to worry about. On the other hand, if it IS Cushing's, it may not be as bad a diagnosis as it at first seemed, which you seem to have come to realize! Scotties and Scottie lovers are the best, aren't they? (We!)

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  13. Mr H. - wheaten scottieJune 2, 2013 at 8:50 AM

    Our prayers are with you all.

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  14. MisakiJune 4, 2013 at 3:52 PM

    paws crossed for you xx

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